Blue moon, you saw me standin’ alone
Without a dream in my heart, without a love of my own
Blue moon, you knew just what I was there for
You heard me sayin’ a prayer for
Someone I really could care for — Lorenz Hart, Richard Rodgers

Some of the local gargoyles look so alone – it’s a sad and lonely life for many of them.

They’re not alone – many of the people walking around seem just as alone. In some respects they’re not alone – workmates at work, friends to meet up with over lunch or a coffee, and someone special – family – at home.

But still, alone. Numb.

People are often pursuing an interest or a long held dream they don’t – or worse, can’t – share with anyone else. Who can you talk to? Who listens? Who talks to you? How do you listen? These days of change consultation has come to mean being talked down to without much listening up going on. Heads up: We’re people, not blocks of stone.

Manifesto
15. Every day make a difference to yourself and others.
28. Every day you will be tested.
34. Every day focus on your dreams.

I woke at 3am with a thumping headache. My automatic response was to get up, take some tablets, massage the nape of my neck and my shoulders with lavender oil, and then crawl back into my warm bed. I lay there waiting for my remedies to work their magic. My head continued to throb, I felt nauseous, and all I could think about was that this headache had better disappear before my alarm blared out at 6am. My day ahead at work invaded my thoughts – I didn’t want to let anyone down and there were things that needed to be done.  I couldn’t be still in that moment and think positive thoughts. All I could think about was what needed doing and why was this happening to me. Eventually I must have fallen asleep.

Some hours later I woke up.

Through the haze of a still very unhappy brain I tried to get up and get going for the day. My body had a completely different intention; it was screaming at me to stop.

So I did. I listened for the first time in ages to what I really needed to do. After a day in bed, some medication, and lots of sleep I think the haze is slowly starting to clear.

Thanks body for knowing what’s best for me when I don’t. I’m sorry I take you so for granted all the time. I’m so grateful for everything you do for me every day.

Manifesto
12. Every day love yourself.
19. Every day make time for yourself.
36. Every day be still. Connect to your inner being. Listen and be guided by it.