© 2009 Marica

010 – Brain haze

I woke at 3am with a thumping headache. My automatic response was to get up, take some tablets, massage the nape of my neck and my shoulders with lavender oil, and then crawl back into my warm bed. I lay there waiting for my remedies to work their magic. My head continued to throb, I felt nauseous, and all I could think about was that this headache had better disappear before my alarm blared out at 6am. My day ahead at work invaded my thoughts – I didn’t want to let anyone down and there were things that needed to be done.  I couldn’t be still in that moment and think positive thoughts. All I could think about was what needed doing and why was this happening to me. Eventually I must have fallen asleep.

Some hours later I woke up.

Through the haze of a still very unhappy brain I tried to get up and get going for the day. My body had a completely different intention; it was screaming at me to stop.

So I did. I listened for the first time in ages to what I really needed to do. After a day in bed, some medication, and lots of sleep I think the haze is slowly starting to clear.

Thanks body for knowing what’s best for me when I don’t. I’m sorry I take you so for granted all the time. I’m so grateful for everything you do for me every day.

12. Every day love yourself.
19. Every day make time for yourself.
36. Every day be still. Connect to your inner being. Listen and be guided by it.

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