© 2009 Marica

057 – We are the key

No one can drive us crazy unless we give them the keys.
— Doug Horton

Some days are so much better than others. I don’t know what it is about the day, the people, the things that have to be done, but some days are sheer hard work from beginning to end.

On these days I wonder where the life loving creative Marica goes. This other Marica is so much quieter and she spends too much time focusing on what’s wrong instead of what’s right. She over thinks things and everything becomes an obstacle instead of merely a hurdle to be jumped over. Fortunately this other Marica doesn’t visit too often.

Today was one of those days that I don’t enjoy. I don’t know why but it was. It has been a long and difficult day at work for one reason and another. The downside is that I feel empty and completely drained – the ideas and the words are struggling to come out.

“Just accept it Marica, stop fighting it,” says the rational me. “You are having a bad day.”

“It seems like such a waste,” I continue.

“Not every Fresh New Day is about being happy happy joy joy,” continues that rational voice.

“All of this may be true but this isn’t how I want to spend my days,” I say.

As I started the car this evening I thought about the power of the key I placed in the ignition. I realised I held the key to what I thought and felt during my day. I determined how it was going to work out. No one else has that control over me unless I give it to them.

Ironically today was a good day, even though that may not be how I perceived it. I am alive, healthy, and smiling. I am warm. I have food and shelter. I have a job that pays the bills. I am loved and I love others. I have options and the ability to make choices. In reality I want for nothing. It is the simple things that matter most. I need to remember this the next time that other woman pays a visit.

Nevertheless I will be glad when I can curl up in my nice warm bed, cuddle up to my man and say good-bye to today. I look forward to a new start tomorrow.

23. Every day retain your personal power. It belongs to you. No one else.
36. Every day be still. Connect to your inner being. Listen and be guided by it.
50. Every day has an ending.