© 2009 Marica

068 – Hallelujah


For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food,
For love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.

— Ralph Waldo Emerson

I went to sleep last night thinking how grateful I was that every day comes to an end. I really wanted this one to end. It ended well with me curled up next to my love safe, warm and healthy.

I have to point out though that not all of yesterday was bad – in fact some parts of it were fantastic, like having lunch with a very special friend – but as the day wore on I felt completely drained. So many things going on. So many things to think about and work through. So many competing demands for my time and attention – the highs and lows of an ordinary work day although some days are a lot harder and longer than others. Then there is the rest of life to squeeze in and very often a lot of squeezing, plotting, scheming and creative thinking needs to occur to make this happen.

Fortunately today is a fresh new day – a chance to put all that has been behind me and start again.

I woke this morning and thought, “It’s Saturday – hallelujah!”

Actually, all I wanted to do was jump up and down on my bed and shout at the top of my lungs, ” Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah”, “I made it to Saturday”, “I’m here”, “I’m alive”, “I want for nothing” … only I didn’t (sigh). Instead I internalised it all. I did my shouting and jumping for joy silently in my head instead.

I thought about Leonard Cohen’s song Hallelujah. This song really moves me.

Cohen has said of the song’s meaning: “It explains that many kinds of hallelujahs do exist, and all the perfect and broken hallelujahs have equal value.”

Source:  David Cheal,  Hallelujah – 20 facts about Leonard Cohen’s Hallelujah, Telegraph.co.uk, 18 December 2008

Perfect and broken hallelujahs … mmm … I have never thought about the broken hallelujahs – the things that don’t work that are just as enlightening and important as the things that go well – the major and minor chords make beautiful music together.

“You need to change your thinking,” said that nagging voice within. “Everything matters. The good. The bad. The ugly. All of it is beautiful if you choose to see it that way. Pain and growth are connected.”

Life isn’t easy. It presents endless challenges. Many of these are created by ourselves. All too often we can be our own worst enemy. Yet, I am me. You are you. And we all deal with things in such different ways. There is no right or wrong here, only different.

I realised this morning that we can have “Hallelujah” moments every day, at any time of the day and not just when things are going well or when we are happy. We are in control of this. I so need to remember this, especially when it all gets just that bit too hard as it did for me over the last three days.

Today I am going about my day with Leonard Cohen’s magical voice singing to me, ” Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah”.

So this was my start to today. How was yours?

Manifesto
06. Every day you make choices.
46. Every day you can change your thoughts.
50. Every day has an ending.

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