© 2009 Marica

119 – Fish out of water

Sometimes I feel like a fish out of water. It is a feeling that sets off alarm bells for me. Sometimes this feeling can niggle away for a while before I choose to acknowledge its presence. Other times it can be so overwhelming ignoring it is impossible.

I increasingly think this feeling is a sign that I need to take control and change whatever it is that is so obviously not working for me. Experience has taught me ignoring this feeling is not the answer. Doing something about it is, only this is the hard bit because it requires a lot of soul searching  – who I am, what I want, what I don’t want, what is the actual issue making me uncomfortable, is it something I can control … so many questions – before I can make any decisions as to what action to take.

One aspect of this feeling is its connection to my inner critic. Sadly I have a tendency to hand over my power to this highly critical and demanding voice and its many messages. Dealing to this is a constant work in progress. Retraining my mind and my responses is so much easier in principle than it is in practice.

A fish needs to be in water, not out of it, to survive. I need to work out what that water is for me and immerse myself in it. My inner critic can become my friend to guide me on my way instead of being the thing that stops me from seeing the possibilities and enjoying them when they’re right there in front of me.

16. Every day looking at the order of things gives you power.
35. Every day focus on what matters to you.
39. Every day trust that there is a bigger picture. You are a part of it even if you may not know what it is.

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